Am I Alone..

Friends... Can be made anywhere including school, internet, or even public place like bus stop... But TRUE friend are hard to find… Some might betray you after you gain their trust… And this is cruel… Most people wearing their “mask” when get to know you… once they reveal their real identity... You’re finished…
Today I saw a lot of people… They were in groups… Chatting... Laughing… Happily to each other. I started to think… how good if I have my own friends… But sadly…I don’t have… I’ve been betrayed by my best friend before… I can’t trust people easily… What’s the true meaning of true friend? I really don’t understand… because I don’t have even one..
I’m trying to make myself associate with others… But I’m worrying that I talk something wrong…. My name was once “polluted” before until I’ve been isolated for 3 years... I don’t wish to repeat back my past life… I could die even thinking of those memories... No one knows what is the exact things happened… I’m trying hardly to forget it but it still clear in my mind… The things happened at my past hurt me deeply… Believe or not… I’m on tears now recalling my pain…
Please… I’m hoping for miracle to pull me out of the dark hole… I don’t wish to my life end like this…