Tuesday, June 23, 2009

saturday, 20 june 2009, 8.30am
Class at 9.00am. Zzz..want sleep later also cannot.. need to wake up and listen lecturer tell story.. it's a fresh day! as usual, i wake up, went to brush teeth, visit toilet, pack note and ready to go Utar.. On the precious moment.. my 45ยบ, there was a SEASON's soya bean bought yesterday night! Without consideration, i open the cover and drink the freshness soya.. What the.... since when SEASON sells sour soya? OMG.. i forgot put it on fridge.. i straight spill the "evolved" soya bean and brush my teech for second time... and so, i arrive Utar around 9.10am. sigh.. anyway, sleep kao² at the noon.. because of DOTA till late of the night^^
The same day of the night, suddenly someone from class next door conducting gathering.. Wow.. surely i go wit my frenz..but then.. the table arrangement was too long, i cant even listen what they chat.. sitting there from 9-10pm chat wit own group =.=".. Later, someone suggested DOTA again.. 2 days continuous Dota was not a bad idea!! But lost 3 game and won 1 game was so sien..
Haha, on the night, i adopt some "son" sempena fathers day.. "ah pa, where we go?" "ah pa, what you doin?" "ah pa, ah pa, ah pa"... Zzz.. im only 21age and you 19age.. takkanlah I 1years old marry, 2 years old created you.. But it was a very happy thing for me^^
Sunday, 21 june 2009, 1.00pm
Boring day again.. no class no lepak what also no... The worms in my stomach start playing a ROCK & ROLL music, informing me they hunger of food. i was calling my friends but all were not available. luckily someone replied me! We manage to go KFC and order some food^^ Hoho, my boring day was filled with activities^^
monday, 22 june 2009, 11.30pm
Double kill.. triple kill.. monster kill.. GODLIKE!!
suddenly i received a message.. "chee aun, have you finish study your physic test for tomorrow?
OH MY GOD!! I immediately ALT+F4.. and start study my physic.. die lo.. chapter 2 have 72slides? chill.. study chapter 3 first.. but im too tired, so i decided to take a short nap at 12am.. Once i wake up.. it was 3am!! im ready to start my journey!! but so tired, let me rest my mind a while..
------A while has just passed-------
Tuesday, 22 june 2009,
it was 5.00am.. my god..what had i done.. i start take my physic note, put on table. "i don't believe i can't study this time", my mind struggled. "Firstly i need to calm.." At the moment, Once i cooldown.. i feel fresh!! Yay, it works!! As i look outside... eh?? why sky so bright? OMG!! it was 7.10am and my test was on 8.00am!! this time i die kao kao... what to do.. attend the class with worries.. luckily, there was a nerd in front me! i manage to copy the formula, hahaha.. But.. how to apply...? aiya, tembak saja la.. till my answer sheet filled up withs lots of inks... (cut words). Finally, i've learned a good lesson T.T..
Math exam was next! Imagining how am I going to die on next paper, 1 july. "Math, can you let me love you please.." but it says "NO".... so i'm not goin to read it and sleep.. hahaha^^

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Am I Alone..

Friends... Can be made anywhere including school, internet, or even public place like bus stop... But TRUE friend are hard to find… Some might betray you after you gain their trust… And this is cruel… Most people wearing their “mask” when get to know you… once they reveal their real identity... You’re finished…
Today I saw a lot of people… They were in groups… Chatting... Laughing… Happily to each other. I started to think… how good if I have my own friends… But sadly…I don’t have… I’ve been betrayed by my best friend before… I can’t trust people easily… What’s the true meaning of true friend? I really don’t understand… because I don’t have even one..
I’m trying to make myself associate with others… But I’m worrying that I talk something wrong…. My name was once “polluted” before until I’ve been isolated for 3 years... I don’t wish to repeat back my past life… I could die even thinking of those memories... No one knows what is the exact things happened… I’m trying hardly to forget it but it still clear in my mind… The things happened at my past hurt me deeply… Believe or not… I’m on tears now recalling my pain…
Please… I’m hoping for miracle to pull me out of the dark hole… I don’t wish to my life end like this…