I NEED STRONGER DETERMINATION!!!

I need stronger determination..
Wana spend more time in studies but how ah!!!
I'm not study type, i know that, dunnit mention..T.T
Thus i hv to study double than others, but ppl said "study so early, can rmb meh?"
I wonder how only i can get support...haihz.. only cold water blown to me...
I wan get stronger and longer determination ah, how!!!!

2nd day internship..

2nd day of internship was so difficult with 1st day. we've to prepare a lot of solution, some easy, some hard. also have to do MgO and CaO test which using HCl 35%.. a lot of fumes coming out, very dangerous!! Other preparation of reagent also involved in using 85% phosphorus acid... while preparation of NH4Cl using high molarity ammonia, causing whole lab full of strong ammonia smell!! stucked inside the room... we cannot open door or window as outside high dust density, inhale more will gives us cancer, i think... scary..

While lunch time, explosion time for the rocks area!! strong explosion outside.. people said that last time the rocks from explosion flew to the building and damaged the building, and some car was hit by the rocks too.. dangerous...The day was dangerous but better as more things to do, more fast can back, hehe...

First day of internship at RCI Gopeng..

Today was my 1st day of internship at RCI Lime (rock chemical industry), and it was so tired and bored.. RCI Lime was a company that manufacture quick lime and hydrated lime. Thus the place was surrounding by huge amount of dust.

As my friend and I arrived to the company, we've given some short briefing about the company management, branches, hierarchy of system, and safety precaution.. They also provide us safety helmet, safety boots and respiratory as the place was SERIOUSLY filled by dust!!

Then, they show us the location of the lab. I was wondering how nice staying in the lab rather these dusty area. But as soon as I open the door, WOW!!! Questions pop out in my mind- is this my house toilet, or a chemical lab? It was AMAZINGLY coated with thick dust everywhere in the lab on table, cupboard, and even wall!! it's was totally kool..

The day was bored. Sitting and looking on lab manual before and after lunch for few hours. Finally before back, the chemist teach us how to use the apparatus and explains the job I've to do. The last step in forming the product required titration, where the chemist and assistant chemist show the steps together- using left hand control dip rate and right hand shake. Great, finally i found something familiar. When i do the titration, they say "right hand control drop (or dip) rate, left hand swirl the conical flask"... I was totally confused. it's different than what i learn from UTAR and different from what they show.. Okay, maybe i was too tired.. So, i ask them show again. And so for 2nd time, i didn't see wrongly, it was right hand to control drop rate!! I guess there were something wrong, thus i said "can i use right hand control drop rate as UTAR taught us like this?" and they said "okay". So, i do the titration, and one of them said "no, this hand control.........". The same thing happened to my friend. ARGH i dulan jor, haihz... weird weird assistant.. so i surrender and do the opposite way taught by UTAR.. Weird eh...

The day end with sitting again... bored.. Hopefully my internship can pass quickly!!